[She's actively opposed to the idea of being wardened. That relationship is going to be contentious at best.
And even she knows that she has too much in common with Natasha - and that while their formative trauma is similar, the differences are still significant. Letting her sister try to push her toward a redemption she doesn't want or believe in is a recipe for pain.]
[ even if she knows that she'd only be her warden up to blocking any other warden from being paired with her. that and doing what natasha is doing now insofar as a big sister role goes.
the rest would be up to yelena. ]
So, he won't allow you to go it solo? Your reasons are reason enough. Did he say why he won't?
[ her jaw sets rigidly at the first text and relaxes a little once the second comes in. ]
Anyone who isn't permanently paired is going it solo.
[ and lording that excuse over her is pretty reminiscent of the control they liked to keep at the Red Room. is she going to have to tell B herself that he's acting like a "handler"? she's beginning to think so. ]
Yes you can. There's been inmates here who've gone unassigned for years. That's not a good enough reason.
Maybe. But there's no guarantee I'd be one of them. And there are some wardens here who shouldn't be put in charge of a potted plant, let alone a person with actual thoughts and feelings.
I hate that this was his condition. I hate being asked to nominate someone to have control over my life. But he might not be completely wrong. At least if I'm looking for my own replacement, I might not wind up shackled to someone else who won't have my back.
[And as much as she doesn't want to give him credit for anything right now, B's mostly respected them, even if he's clearly unhappy every time she bargains for more distance.]
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[She's actively opposed to the idea of being wardened. That relationship is going to be contentious at best.
And even she knows that she has too much in common with Natasha - and that while their formative trauma is similar, the differences are still significant. Letting her sister try to push her toward a redemption she doesn't want or believe in is a recipe for pain.]
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I respect that.
[ even if she knows that she'd only be her warden up to blocking any other warden from being paired with her. that and doing what natasha is doing now insofar as a big sister role goes.
the rest would be up to yelena. ]
So, he won't allow you to go it solo? Your reasons are reason enough. Did he say why he won't?
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Anyone who isn't permanently paired is going it solo.
[ and lording that excuse over her is pretty reminiscent of the control they liked to keep at the Red Room. is she going to have to tell B herself that he's acting like a "handler"? she's beginning to think so. ]
Yes you can. There's been inmates here who've gone unassigned for years. That's not a good enough reason.
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I hate that this was his condition. I hate being asked to nominate someone to have control over my life. But he might not be completely wrong. At least if I'm looking for my own replacement, I might not wind up shackled to someone else who won't have my back.
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Put up your own boundaries and hold firm to them in the meantime.
I have your back, too, you know.
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[And as much as she doesn't want to give him credit for anything right now, B's mostly respected them, even if he's clearly unhappy every time she bargains for more distance.]
And I know you do. I'm counting on that.
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